It’s been a really shitty day.
I took some adderall though, and it is helping me focus. I need to knock this paper out. I’ve just been thinking a lot. About school, about life, about teachers. I really appreciate the teachers that kick your ass. I think for the past three years, aside from my music courses I haven’t been challenged enough. I have had easy “A” classes, I have talked my way into a better grade…and it just isn’t right.
I have a teacher this year that is amazing. She challenges us, she makes us write papers, critical thinking logs, read plays, rehearsal logs, and it is only a 3 credit course. I get an insane workout in her class three times a week and she is SO inspiring. I want to learn, I need to learn more, and I need to fight through my challenges. Like math this past summer. I cried at least 3 times a week, and went to office hours everyday, and I hated it, and wanted to drop the class, but I fought and fought and had no sleep and got a B. I worked so hard. So many people give up when things begin to get tough, but you can’t!
I’m tired of half reading books. I’m tired of quitting workout programs! I’m tired of being lazy!
I need to just bust through the things that are hard and keep going. So…I’m going to go work on my paper. I can do this. I will do this.
I haven’t worked out in 4 days bahh! I will tomorrow, I will tomorrow!
In other news, my audition tonight was awesome :D